I’m normally a news junkie. National news, political news, local news. If I watched the news today I could get it all in one after the Orlando shooting.
I used to live a block from the club where the shooting took place. It was an eclectic neighborhood. A combination of older homes built in the mid 1900’s and newer homes and condos with a Mediterranean flair. Less than 2 miles from downtown, there was an air of gentrification along with elderly homeowners that had watched the neighborhood change with the times.
Thru an otherwise quiet neighborhood runs Orange Avenue. Lots of shops, a major hospital a few blocks away, a gym and immediately across from the club there’s a Wendy’s and on another corner a Dunkin’ Donuts. I confess I used to walk to both far too frequently.
The nightclub “Pulse” was a neighbor too. I admit the music was loud, carrying thru the neighborhood on weekend nights. Dance music, house music, and sometimes salsa. I imagine the noise may have bothered some, to me it was just part of the weekend on my block.
There wasn’t enough parking in the Pulse lot. Club goers would park on the neighboring side streets including mine and it wasn’t unusual to bump into patrons on their way into the club. I didn’t see many on their way out as the club let out late. They were generally very polite, they asked if we minded if they parked in front of our house, and incidentally they were gay.
I won’t watch the news today because I don’t want to view the endless speculation that accompanies these things. They’ll guess as to motive, some stations will steer the conversation to radicalism instead of homophobia. They’ll bring on experts, comments from politicians, tweets from Trump. Someone will blame Obama.
The NRA will close ranks and insist that guns for everyone, everywhere is the answer. If only there were more “good guys with guns”. Others will call for “common sense” gun reform and background checks but they’ll ultimately be ignored. They will speak to survivors of previous shootings. They’ll speak to witnesses and relatives. There will be tears. The cycle is predictable and goes on and on.
I was in Atlanta when the bombing took place during the Olympics. I’d been near the location a couple hours before the blast. I was in New York when the twin towers came down. When I saw the hole a year later I was numb. I’m not afraid for myself, I know there are yet things for me to do so I worry not. I do fear for my children and grandchildren. What kind of country do we live in? What kind of world? I learned Facebook has an app to let people know you are safe when there’s a shooting near you. What kind of world?
When I was young. I could ride my bike or take the bus all over town. During the summer I would leave my home precisely at 9 in the morning, to return only for food or before the street lamps came on. I felt safe. It was safe. My children’s children will not know that kind of freedom, nor safety.
I won’t watch the news today, maybe not tomorrow. I know what they’re saying. They’ve said it all before.
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I hear you. I’ve been avoiding the news today too. This is a bit eerie to me as I live in San Bernardino where the previous mass shooting was. And in the early 80s, I lived in Orlando, off of Orange Blossom Trail in the Americana Villas, a large apartment community (probably a couple hundred units) with tennis and basketball courts everywhere. (I’m sure the name is different now.) It was only about five minutes from Church Street and Orange Avenue, where I worked. This is such a tragedy. My prayers and my heart are with Orlando.
I rarely watch the news anymore… The entertainment value is way too high and really outrageous. During 9/11 my then husband would’ve been in NYC that day had it not been the day after I was home recuperating from surgery.
And of course, living in Connecticut, we are still in shock and awe over Sandy Hook. The killing of those little children and their teachers still hurts.
I do know that there is no political will to take on the NRA. Perhaps this latest massacre will be the catalyst for change, or the next one, or the next one. Perhaps by then we will have reached the “tipping point”.
I agree. I tried to do some writing, but nothing came out. I’ve learned to not be a News junkie during times like this since 911. There is only so much I can take and only so much I can give. Since I’m still breathing, I have to keep living.